I want to tell you all my story. I know you do love stories so please pay attention as I try to clear my mind.
December 2015...
One chilly December afternoon. While I was unwinding with my friends and doing our "thing." I being the course representative for my department, a fellow course mate came over and introduced Bisola to me as our new course mate."WOW, she's a pretty girl," I thought to myself.
I introduced myself to her, and we exchanged pleasantries. She proceeded to seat on a bench in the middle of the class. I just couldn't stop staring at her.
My friends started the argument of who should go for her, an argument that nearly caused a fight between us. But eventually I won the argument,my confidence is that good! I walked over to her and discussed this and that with her, just to spark a connection. We exchanged our phones to go through our galleries.
I should confess, she was the first lady I had genuine interest in (in UNIOSUN), an interest I hoped will graduate into love/relationship. In the middle of all that romance, we discovered our class for that day was cancelled. And well, I wanted to know her hostel through that opportunity. So, I followed her home. Her hostel was lit! It was a wawu!
A 100l girl? How did you acquire these gadgets and electronics so fast? I inquired jokingly.
"My brother finished from UNIOSUN", she replied.
We discussed about a lot of things, and the spirit was flowing. I had to leave her hostel very late that night with my stomach full of joy and tickles. Though, I had my doubts if she felt the same.
Her thoughts filled my mind, every corner of it, I could not eat, I could not sleep, I could not drink, I just felt fulfilled.
The following day, we met in school, and I was so pleased to see her. We had a class and we talked afterwards, just like the previous day. The following day, we met in school, and I was so pleased to see her.
She already had two female friends that were very close to her.
In between our open romances, a lot of people saw us together, and they already started pouring sand in our sugar. But well, there was nothing between us, we were just two friends enjoying the company of each other.
I actually wanted something bigger than that, but it just wasn't coming through.
I was at captain cook one day;a wellknown cafeteria in school when she called me that she needed to see me, I told her to meet me at the ETF building beside Captain Cook.
She came with one of her friends.
Her friend stayed a distance while she came closer to speak to me.
"How are you? She asked."
I'm fine, how're you too? I asked.
Fine too, I just need to tell you some things.
Okay? I listened attentively.
Please do me a favor, remove my picture as your phone's wallpaper.
I did, immediately without query.
Thanks! Secondly, please tell everyone saying that we are dating that we are not because I can't date you.
Okay, I replied. Feeling dejected and used.
Why?
What have I done wrong?
Am I a bad person?
I thought of everything overnight, I couldn't sleep again, for a negative reason this time.
I concluded she could never have such buoyancy to reject me so brutally that way. So, I concluded that the friend that followed her to me must have pushed her to do so.
I hated that friend from that day onwards, till tomorrow.
Days and weeks went by, and we didn't talk. I felt hurt, I wanted to talk to her so bad, I wanted to hold her, hug her, feel her, spend time with her.
We went for the December break and we returned January. I tried to talk to her again, but she was still not interested in talking to me about her brutal conclusion about me.
I realised she liked another guy already and I tried to move on but I just couldn't.
Exams were close by. During a particular night class, I was in one corner, reading, when a friend came to me asking me about!!Bisola's relationship with another boy, Tobi. I had no knowledge about it.
He told me that she [Bisola] was now dating a fellow course mate, Tóbi.
Tobi and Bisola continued the relationship for months, and it made me feel really mad and bad.
But I had no choice, I wished I could wish them success truly...But I couldn't.
A week to our second semester examinations, I heard they broke up.
I felt pained and happy.I saw it as another opportunity for me to get to her.I gave her time to process and heal. Afterwards, I got to her as a friend again and we became closer than the previous friendship we had.
I had unlimited access to her hostel so much that I could sleep in her hostel anytime I wanted to.
My friends made fun of me, saying I got a first girlfriend on campus.But deep down in me, I knew we were not dating.
We were a group of five, Bisola, Funmi (her bestie),Fola (her bestie's boyfriend), Olamide (my bestie) and I.
We did things together in a circle.
I had abandoned my larger group of friends and in fact, my hostel.
When my friends wanted my attention, I did not show up, it happened that a good friend of mine had to come down to Bisola's hostel to embarrass me just to make me come back to my senses but I was far lost in a love I couldn't express.
This went on for weeks till we went on Christmas break again.
During the break, we communicated really well.We were chatting on WhatsApp one day when I asked for my Xmas gift, she asked me what I really wanted as a gift and I told her the best thing I would appreciate is her love.
She got very angry and barked at me like a kid.
"Is it because I'm still talking to you? I don't love you, and I will never do",she clapped back!
That was the second time she said that. She sounded like she really meant it.I felt bad and immediately, I called olamide, my bestie and explained everything to her. She calmed me and advised me to try to get over her.
I tried to, but it was destined never to be easy for me..
Now in 200 level, I learnt she is now dating another guy called Paul who also has been a friend of mine since our pre degree days.I was very disappointed when I heard, but what could I do?
Their relationship went on for months, then they broke up again.
This time, I felt worse! I cried!
I do not understand what's wrong with her
I really wish I could help, but she didn't give me the chance.I tried to be around her, so she will not feel the absence of Paul, but my presence wasn't helping.
We actually returned as friends and we still talked till the end of the session.
I asked her out again, and it ended in another heartbreak for me because she still does not have any feelings for me irrespective of whatever strong feelings I've for her.
I asked her out again, and it ended in another heartbreak for me because she still does not have any feelings for me irrespective of whatever strong feelings I've for her.
"why does she hate me so much?
Written by, Akingbade Ademide.
December 2015...
One chilly December afternoon. While I was unwinding with my friends and doing our "thing." I being the course representative for my department, a fellow course mate came over and introduced Bisola to me as our new course mate."WOW, she's a pretty girl," I thought to myself.
I introduced myself to her, and we exchanged pleasantries. She proceeded to seat on a bench in the middle of the class. I just couldn't stop staring at her.
My friends started the argument of who should go for her, an argument that nearly caused a fight between us. But eventually I won the argument,my confidence is that good! I walked over to her and discussed this and that with her, just to spark a connection. We exchanged our phones to go through our galleries.
I should confess, she was the first lady I had genuine interest in (in UNIOSUN), an interest I hoped will graduate into love/relationship. In the middle of all that romance, we discovered our class for that day was cancelled. And well, I wanted to know her hostel through that opportunity. So, I followed her home. Her hostel was lit! It was a wawu!
A 100l girl? How did you acquire these gadgets and electronics so fast? I inquired jokingly.
"My brother finished from UNIOSUN", she replied.
We discussed about a lot of things, and the spirit was flowing. I had to leave her hostel very late that night with my stomach full of joy and tickles. Though, I had my doubts if she felt the same.
Her thoughts filled my mind, every corner of it, I could not eat, I could not sleep, I could not drink, I just felt fulfilled.
The following day, we met in school, and I was so pleased to see her. We had a class and we talked afterwards, just like the previous day. The following day, we met in school, and I was so pleased to see her.
She already had two female friends that were very close to her.
In between our open romances, a lot of people saw us together, and they already started pouring sand in our sugar. But well, there was nothing between us, we were just two friends enjoying the company of each other.
I actually wanted something bigger than that, but it just wasn't coming through.
I was at captain cook one day;a wellknown cafeteria in school when she called me that she needed to see me, I told her to meet me at the ETF building beside Captain Cook.
She came with one of her friends.
Her friend stayed a distance while she came closer to speak to me.
"How are you? She asked."
I'm fine, how're you too? I asked.
Fine too, I just need to tell you some things.
Okay? I listened attentively.
Please do me a favor, remove my picture as your phone's wallpaper.
I did, immediately without query.
Thanks! Secondly, please tell everyone saying that we are dating that we are not because I can't date you.
Okay, I replied. Feeling dejected and used.
Why?
What have I done wrong?
Am I a bad person?
I thought of everything overnight, I couldn't sleep again, for a negative reason this time.
I concluded she could never have such buoyancy to reject me so brutally that way. So, I concluded that the friend that followed her to me must have pushed her to do so.
I hated that friend from that day onwards, till tomorrow.
Days and weeks went by, and we didn't talk. I felt hurt, I wanted to talk to her so bad, I wanted to hold her, hug her, feel her, spend time with her.
We went for the December break and we returned January. I tried to talk to her again, but she was still not interested in talking to me about her brutal conclusion about me.
I realised she liked another guy already and I tried to move on but I just couldn't.
Exams were close by. During a particular night class, I was in one corner, reading, when a friend came to me asking me about!!Bisola's relationship with another boy, Tobi. I had no knowledge about it.
He told me that she [Bisola] was now dating a fellow course mate, Tóbi.
Tobi and Bisola continued the relationship for months, and it made me feel really mad and bad.
But I had no choice, I wished I could wish them success truly...But I couldn't.
A week to our second semester examinations, I heard they broke up.
I felt pained and happy.I saw it as another opportunity for me to get to her.I gave her time to process and heal. Afterwards, I got to her as a friend again and we became closer than the previous friendship we had.
I had unlimited access to her hostel so much that I could sleep in her hostel anytime I wanted to.
My friends made fun of me, saying I got a first girlfriend on campus.But deep down in me, I knew we were not dating.
We were a group of five, Bisola, Funmi (her bestie),Fola (her bestie's boyfriend), Olamide (my bestie) and I.
We did things together in a circle.
I had abandoned my larger group of friends and in fact, my hostel.
When my friends wanted my attention, I did not show up, it happened that a good friend of mine had to come down to Bisola's hostel to embarrass me just to make me come back to my senses but I was far lost in a love I couldn't express.
This went on for weeks till we went on Christmas break again.
During the break, we communicated really well.We were chatting on WhatsApp one day when I asked for my Xmas gift, she asked me what I really wanted as a gift and I told her the best thing I would appreciate is her love.
She got very angry and barked at me like a kid.
"Is it because I'm still talking to you? I don't love you, and I will never do",she clapped back!
That was the second time she said that. She sounded like she really meant it.I felt bad and immediately, I called olamide, my bestie and explained everything to her. She calmed me and advised me to try to get over her.
I tried to, but it was destined never to be easy for me..
Now in 200 level, I learnt she is now dating another guy called Paul who also has been a friend of mine since our pre degree days.I was very disappointed when I heard, but what could I do?
Their relationship went on for months, then they broke up again.
This time, I felt worse! I cried!
I do not understand what's wrong with her
I really wish I could help, but she didn't give me the chance.I tried to be around her, so she will not feel the absence of Paul, but my presence wasn't helping.
We actually returned as friends and we still talked till the end of the session.
I asked her out again, and it ended in another heartbreak for me because she still does not have any feelings for me irrespective of whatever strong feelings I've for her.
I asked her out again, and it ended in another heartbreak for me because she still does not have any feelings for me irrespective of whatever strong feelings I've for her.
"why does she hate me so much?
Written by, Akingbade Ademide.
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